isaiah's
overly romanticised version of life

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Thursday, December 24, 2009

2nd chance at a huge price

I guess that means I'll have to take Organic Chem again next semester. In every other way, things are better than the previous Semesters, so next Sem if I can finally nail Organic, things will take a good turn.

I mean a good turn divided by 2.

Somehow because of this shit that happened, I'm less anxious at clearing my 2000s by the end of year 2 -- it has now become impossible anyway. All I'm having questions about is where God is leading everything in relation to, erm, matters of the heart.

My confidence at taking things further suffered a hull breach when CM2121 gave me the _|_. For that split second, questions upon questions about my supposed future career came upon me and for once I fully realised the importance of having a future which I can then lead someone into.

I'm improving, albeit too slowly. Too slowly. I suddenly have the urge to punish myself by delaying gratification until the end of the next Sem, when I can finally chalk up better grades to... prove myself? Prove my worthiness? Worthiness of what? By God's standards I'm not worthy of anything and everything I've been given had been grace. This pursuit of mine in question is going to be so much more of a grace from God.

But I guess, in spite of the little struggle I've just reportedly been through, I'm not the waiting kind. I foresee I'll be fine in the few days to come, when we'll next meet. What immediately follows will be crucial. Whether this tiny series of events will be a foretaste of things to come next Semester, I don't wanna know. All I know is that I might not want to do uncalculated things like ripping off my own heart in the middle of a Semester, again.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Home Home

I totally get what Kelvin said about not wanting to shop in SG again. For some reason, stuff's always cheaper outside Singapore, be it US or Batam!

Still, going to 2 neighbouring countries within this short week (on church assignments for both) made me stop and think about how much I've taken the clean and orderly streets of Singapore (and the traffic lights!!) for granted. National Education can't do shit, seriously, while an overseas trip or two was all it took to make me treasure my home country and the level of creature comfort and religious freedom that we enjoy. Now I can finally truly say, there's no place I'd rather be.

Still, it's good training for next summer, when I'll be out teaching music to kids in the plains of Mongolia, if Steph & gang's plans come to fruition.

Since I last blogged

I've

  • Taken my exams. Urgh.
  • Braved JLPT2 after mugging for 2 days.
  • Participated in church camp and now feel more spiritually revitalised than ever (and finally grew tired of prawns)
  • Gone for my first short mission trip with my church to Batam and having my life changed by a S$5 polo tee.
  • Gotten sore fingers from playing Bass.

... and I'll be

  • Doing posters for Campus Fellowship activities the next semester
  • Carolling and spreading the Good News at Dhoby Ghaut on, of all days, Dec 22
  • (while trying to keep the BAD news out of my mind)
  • Spending the most unromantic New Year's eve ever. With my BAND!

The next level for our band is so near yet so far, especially in times like this when the Ben & Jerry's Open Mic programme is being suspended and suddenly we realised that for now, we've lost our source of regular gigs. We've just gotta keep at doing what we love, and take active steps to improve. For me, "Improvement" in a very real sense might only be possible after Emerge, when I'll contemplate leaving VOICES.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

GG

The good kind of GG.

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Giving it a pass though, it's not gonna be that affordable and I've already got a white/gold watch, but still!

Saturday, November 07, 2009

5

2 things I will start doing. No, 3 things on my to-do list, now that I got my 5-string bass.

  • Perfect my muting techniques which are, sad to say, pretty immature as of now.
  • Practice playing with a pick.
  • Continue on my quest for Muse's HYSTERIA!

Friday, November 06, 2009

One night in YIH

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2 cans of Red Bull, one pack of sweets.

Motivation: deadline.

Incentive: ???

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Toy Soldiers

I find myself in an institution which does not reward proper sleeping habits.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Down

Down with fever. Can't be there for my project groups and fellowship cell.

Lost 2 performance opportunities with VOICES at one go. It really bothers me.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Refresh

The improvement from Band 3, the self-arranged practice from Band 2, and the little surprise from Kee Onn & Joel really made me feel much more refreshed,

at a time when the dark cloud of FEVER hovers right above my head, ready to discharge that bolt of infection right on me, and I feel like the second most fatigued student in NUS (first is Ryan Lee :P)

Sore throat is pretty much confirmed though, and I've got 2 singing gigs coming up. What a bad timing T.T

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Such are the times

Such are the times when the bulk of my time is spent on stuff that isn't exactly newsworthy while the real juicy newsworthy 劲爆 events of late, I cannot share.

What a waste.

Had a feel-good birthday celebration this year though. Thanks sister you've made my day.

10 weeks of mayhem have passed, my comrade in arms has finally escaped the dark tower while I'm a few steps further into the torture chamber, 'cause I love the pain (Read: My fellow Chem Major in VOICES has transferred course and my lab sessions have just begun). Talk about weeping and gnashing of teeth.

4 piano accompaniments to practice, now.

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

It's not too long

I don't know what you think about me, maybe you feel nothing at all.

But I don't wanna smile without you.

Monday, October 05, 2009

powerless?

I hate it when there's nothing I can do to help. I hate this feeling.

I hate it when people close up because they fear the emotions within them. I hate it when people refuse to address their problems just because they need to be painfully honest sometimes to do so.

But more than anything else, I hate it that in the end even if everything is brought out into broad daylight, I still won't be able to help.

Feel-good

Everything's now in the feel-good state. Not rainbows and butterflies, but feel-good.

But that's dangerous. I was unbelievably optimistic about my studies last Sem, or maybe complacency was the word. This Sem I'm far from complacent, but the automatic loosening of tension after my last (TECHNICALLY my last) midterm shook me a bit. No I must keep the tension at a healthy level.

Friday, September 11, 2009

10 years

It's been 10 years.

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Finally, a chance to return home. After so long a wait.

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Haste

Let things take their natural course and not try to rush it.

As much as I can't take all the waiting and guessing and rationalising. I feel I'm so much more reserved now, but maybe I'm doing just fine.

'sides, it's not even time for ME to make a decision yet.

I just need the constant reminder that it'll turn out wrong if I take shortcuts.

More listeners, more advisers, less wet blankets. That'll do for now :D

Tuesday, September 08, 2009

Damn it

Got craving for chocolate, after doing hours of research just on choc alone argh.

Nice legs song. Who can resist the legs ambiguity in the key, modulating between D Major and A Major and never really coming to a resolution. I Like!

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Up

Watched UP. Came out of the theater thinking of everything else but balloons. Disillusionment, significance, decisions, friendships, life. Anything but balloons.

It's one of the films of late which once again reminded me that "good and bad" isn't exactly that clear cut; it's the decisions that we make at the moment that determine which side we take, and if need be, who survives.

There are times when I make decisions that, on retrospective, don't make any sense at all. Besides being appalled at myself I find myself wondering what if people judge me by those decisions. Most of the time they don't, actually, and I have to remind myself not to come too quickly to judgements about people as well, by only seeing the tip of the iceberg.

扯很远了。扯回来吧。

Basically I feel a lot for the old explorer guy (forgot his name) who gave his life for his achievement and vindication. I'm still not sure if I would call him bad person, though in any standard story his fate would be the "just deserts" of any typical villain. Was he so lost in his pursuit that he got twisted in the process? Was it his momentary loss of composure that drew a fault line between him and the heroes of the story (and his many past victims)?

In the end is it even worth it, though? Giving so much for an achievement which only a small slice of the future generations will remember. And losing so much more in the process.

I am happy for our heroes who found joy in life together, but the lessons etched more deeply in my heart will be from the old explorer, who died without vindication.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

JSS

Thanks to JSS, I suddenly find myself...

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Going for bowling again...

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Playing Baseball and attempting blockbuster Home Runs...

And getting a chance to camwhore in a yukata jinbei (super casual Japanese ethnic wear for your ojisan next door).

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夏祭り! Summer Festival 2009!

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Perspective

New vocab learnt from Steph: "Wholesome-looking" :D

Saturday, August 08, 2009

What Do You See

Wa, nice leh, one of the nicer songs from these few years. First heard it only today LOL.

I somehow can't imagine the throngs of primary school kids sitting in stuffy school halls singing this song during comunity singing, but I'm not complaining :) We do need non-schoolkid-friendly songs once in a while la, huh?

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

Summer Thanksgiving

Now that summer is coming to an end, I'll give a general account (not the one on CORS) of what transpired during the sweltering season of fun.

Blazing the Music with Converse! Playing in the glass window display at Tangs wasn't exactly friendly on the acoustics, but we did have fun!

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Xavier said he thought of this J-Rock hairstyle when he first looked at me. Encouraging, huh?

Bintan beach retreat with CVCF! A great time of fellowship, Tzu Char binging, Bintang Beer and hermit crab collection.

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MusicMen!!!

All Saints' Church Student Camp, where I witnessed many brothers and sisters being used mightily by God for expanding His Kingdom.

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Plus my own nostalgic night walk around AHS, marvelling at how old (concrete) meets new (concrete)

SHINE Youth Event at Orchard Road! I played bass for VOICES and REIS for the fringe event booths.

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Stormtrooper from 501st! They're actually the most decent-looking ones at SHINE, among a whole throng of cosplayers.

CAC (Cultural Activities Club) Camp. I just found out that they'll have a finale this coming Friday where CAC will actually be publicised. Wow.

Too late, damage's done. Put me through 3 days of pure, unadulterated "Engin Camp Part 2". つまんない。

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Marina Barrage really boasts a panoramic view I'd say.

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Takeaways from the camp? A nice tan plus a sand sorcerer shot, LOL.

You'll bet I wanted some relief from that 3 days of awkwardness away from home! Got it at the following J-Studies Society camp!

I kind of missed JSS, 'cause most of the activities clashed with lessons and VOICES. I've gotta say they're a fun bunch!

Nice freshies and a CCA camp that's got its own character. Didn't waste my time.

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Fun with old friends...

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Enjoying Nighttime Sentosa

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Manning stations and doing silly stuff like drinking with 10 straws

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Playing Ponyo at the beach

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Playing motion shots with DSLR. Again.

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The glorious Jumpshot!

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Burying Junhong in the sand and "building" a Gundam Wing Zero out of it. Carolyn can really draw, even on sand!

Halfway through the summer I found myself in the organising commitee of CVCF Freshmen Camp, doing programs with Chuling. When Jiamian first explained to me his concept of CORS bidding simulation - all for the purpose of giving the freshmen some hands-on before Round 1A actually starts - I never expected the project to scale up towards a fully working, formula-driven spreadsheet. We had great fun bidding for food items (which we agreed are the best form of incentive we can promise in a 1-day bidding game), but eventually the prizes proved to be... a tad too much to stomach, LOL.

I've enjoyed the CVCF camp experience lest year - simple but rewarding. I guess I can say the same for this year as well :)

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Same Museum, different year.

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I've come to love eagles especially after understanding the significance of the analogy in Isaiah 40

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The real "Can of Worms"! If these are the larvae I can imagine how big the beetles will end up. The description says that they taste like shrimps when fried, but I'm not sure if I want to find out!

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Our group winnings! I guess we got the more digestable combination.

The coming semester promises to be more hectic and eventful, and my prayer is still the same. To remember God in the excitement of my days of youth, and to deliver.

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Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Ohayo Merlion

Somehow it warms my heart to know that the Merlion is kinda famous in Japan.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Nihon no Mikata - Friends of Japan

Yazima Beauty Salon: 3 Japanese guys playing the role of 3 sisters hailing from Nevada... what a concept LOL

I foresee a JSS mass dance in the making.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Snippets from SHINE

I'm glad we came through for our gig at Orchard yesterday! Both for VOICES and REIS.

4 practices in total for VOICES, changes here and there during the sessions, getting bold and experimental: Roger on bass, Joel catching exact string parts, and me on drums. DRUMS!!!

3 practice sessions for REIS. Looking back, we've been pretty bold indeed!

Be it with VOICES at the crowded front of Wisma Atria or with REIS at the panoramic Ngee Ann City Civic Plaza, nothing quite beats performing right out there in the open. I should probably say that I felt less nervous than in my gigs at Ben & Jerry's 'cause...

  • I generally feel more relaxed in open spaces
  • The sound system was better. I could really blast my bass!
  • The Stormtroopers from 501st Legion somewhat gave me an ego boost.

~

Jane Doe (DJ from 91.3): "Hi, you are?"

在下: "Weiquan."

JD: "Hmm..."

在下: "Is Isaiah easier to remember?"

JD: "Ah yes, Isaiah! Alright."

... ...

在下: "... yes, and REIS stands for Roger, Evan, Isaiah and Sanjay."

JD: "OK. How do I spell your name again?"

在下: "i-s-a-i-a-h."

JD: "Oh... that Isaiah!"

在下: "Yes. That one! :)"

JD: "So you watch Grey's Anatomy!"

在下: "... "

~

Evan: "So, are you happy?"

在下: "I should be."

Saturday, June 27, 2009

Rhythm

Drumming is a totally different experience. Altogether.

I'm so close to saying that the exhilaration it gives beats that which I get from singing.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Step 2

This is going slower than planned.

I've finally finished Emo Intel out of the tons of books I bought for the summer.

And now, after getting to understand the nature of emotions and how they build up or drag down the individual, depending on how he or she manages it, I'm now moving on to getting inspirations for how exactly to manage those emotions.

"Changes that Heal" by Dr Henry Cloud. From my random browsing I found some honest accounts of very personal issues that people might face, and scriptural answers to them. Now after going through the introductory chapters which kind of promised some practical aspects of growing in God's image and likeness - an idea frequently brought up, but not that easily defined - I'm really looking forward to the rest of the journey.

Back to my study room then!

Sunday, June 21, 2009

In His time

Yesterday's cell was especially edifying. Almost all of us served in Student Camp, and we've all had our very own tiny (some not so tiny) encounters with God, and opportunities to serve Him.

And sometimes, God just raises us up for the occasion, under very short notice!

I'm glad to say that I've found one of my areas of calling. But it's just one, and I'm sure there're more.

Burdens come and go. In different times we see different people in need, but who will I be called to minister to? This time round I've been reading Emotional Intelligence by Goleman, and in the cases described in the book I see people missing out on the fullness of life because of a missing ingredient in their life: EQ.

Fights, destructive relationships, lives broken by the onslaught of negative emotions, and all we need is to handle our emotions better.

That could be learnt (or for some, re-learnt) with external help.

Which brought back to mind my distant interest in Social Work modules in University.

I still have yet to make my choice for my Minor, and I'll still be doing J-Studies modules. But I should probably take a closer look at SW in the following semesters.

Still, God, even in all these, even when I know that everything will only happen in Your own time, I guess I won't cease pleading with you about that small request of mine. The frustration has awakened all over again, and I doubt it ever will go away.

I know I sound like a brat, but I'm sick of waiting.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

OMG

I was very grateful that God used me after all, for ASC Student Camp, when it first seemed impossible.

And just when I thought I'd merely "session" for them during the daily worship services 'cause I had other CCA admin stuff to settle, I eventually decided to stay in because of the early hours of the practices and services.

I guess spending the wee hours outside home for that number of days gave me the time and the ambience I needed for some time alone with God.

During the BBQ on the final day, among Zhihao's PA system playlist there was "5 loaves 2 fish" by Corrinne May, a song about surrender, that came into my life during a time when I really needed that moment of surrender to God.

To surrender my... delusion that I could take things into my own hands easily, I suppose.

I went off alone to that dark classroom block to pray. About many things.

Among which was my frustration that I never seemed to be able to be fully satisfied in God Himself. I was still chasing after the kinds of love that I wanted, or I thought I wanted. Those desires were real, and relevant, I believe. They remain very much so, and I believe they're from God.

But I could go so far as to say that I won't be satisfied; I WON'T REST until one day when my desires are met.

And though I've gotten enough timely messages from God to never doubt His existence ever again, truth was, to me He's just like a pen pal, a one-way Skype friend. We communicate at a distance. Only He was a webcam. Sure, I've recieved a few "e-mails", but what I knew of Him was based on information. Concrete, yes, but just information.

And I know there can never be a day when we can sit down and have tea and talk just like friends do. Before I go home to His Kingdom, that is.

So for now, this is the furthest our communication could go.

...

"How could I possibly be satisfied like that?" I asked God.

~

After I got a bit better I went back to my bunk which was also the venue for the camp prayer cell, and Qinglin was making this passing comment about being surprised at someone saying it's easy to believe in the Christian faith.

In an equally passing comment, I said I'd probably say the same. It's just information based faith, after all.

I was surprised at how, at that moment, I easily took Shuyi's reply to that comment of mine, 'cause I feel a tad reserved now even as I put it into words when I recount that conversation.

"Perhaps you haven't really met God yet."

But I had to say, I was suddenly opened to possibilities that lay before me and I chose not to see.

To think that I dared say that this was the furthest level of fellowship I could go with God. When in my last post I was still praying for "something better".

WHEN GOD HAS ALREADY GIVEN ME HIS BEST! HE GAVE HIS LIFE FOR ME!

There's definitely more I can seek, and God can always reveal more of Himself to me. And here, I'll ask Him to.

"Please."

Monday, June 08, 2009

Wait

The word is still regret. Regret that I've killed something that's alive. Like cutting off a bud before it could bear flower and fruit. Like boiling an egg so that the chick could never be born.

So, the hungry man who could have had spring chicken now has only a hard bolied egg to show for it.

God opens up opportunities, and when he decides to open doors he'll open them anyway.

Just that now, because I sought early gratification, these opportunities, now hollowed by my act of folly, stare back at me in mockery.

But if I so fervently commit to prayer, would he not give me something new, something better? He will, whether I believe it or not. Just that if I keep on refusing to wait in faith, I'd destroy everything.

So I'll whine, but I'll wait.

Deliver

The key word for my next 3 weeks will be: Deliver.

I have my time constraints, and I might really be too stretched out. Still, I don't need that much time; I just need to make full use for whatever little time I have for everything.

And deliver.

Friday, June 05, 2009

thank You for the music

I'm very much looking forward to my next gig with R.E.I. (still a tentative name).

Good that all of us are quickly building on our repertoire (the foundation of which was laid by quick upgrades from Evan's acostic solo sets). I guess one of the best things about us is that we all sing, and we all had experiences in directing bands. 'Cause this means we get our turns to sing lead vocals, we can do 3-part harmony like nobody's business, and all of us have some kind of ownership in our "open-source" repertiore in general.

I was so on high from singing "Wherever You Will Go" during yesterday's jamming!

And I do see myself going somewhere serving in church music ministry, compared to the previous few months when things got a bit dry. I guess the sharing in the previous ministry gathering about the importance of skills in a worship band did help me loosen up a bit from that highly reserved state I used to find myself in when playing for service.

That means I can afford to be more expressive, and now I'm more ready to try new things out. I kind of surprised myself with that agogo-ish bassline for that song which I haven't heard before that session but they all called "ancient", LOL.

Friday, May 29, 2009

Ah, yes

I had to remind myself that, if this had been the December vacation instead, it'd be over soon.

But now I still have 2 months.

All other plans are going on fine, but I've gotten a few books for the summer and I expect to finish them by the time school reopens.

I have important things to do next Sem. And study. I cannot afford to get such results for a third time.

Plus, I'm still giving myself a deadline to achieve that goal. I haven't much time left.

P.S.

I was bent on not buying any clothes this summer, 'cause I have enough of them already and also I have to save money.

And then I realised, Great S'pore Sale happens now.

Shit.

Screw that confidence

'Cause in the end the grades of my elective modules weren't as rosy as expected.

And my cores, I'm just grateful they didn't get any worse.

Quite a few marked differences in this Sem and last Sem, but still not good enough to push the results up considerably. If everything had proceeded as planned, things would now be very different.

I shan't say anything about academics for the next Sem for the time being.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Bean there, worn that

After an evening of "reckless abandon" in A minor preparation for gig at Ben & Jerry's on Saturday, Roger, Evan and I decided to continue on this whole beanie idea that we'd been toying with during audition day.

And Roger's finally hopped onto the Musicians' Black-Rimmed-Specs bandwagon!

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Same answer, "Tsk, not used to it la."

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Conclusion: New beanie for Roger. No beanie for Evan.

As for me, I'll save my beanie for some other day. This Sat I'll be turning up with a fedora.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

What I really wanna say is

There're times when you encounter people who just can't stop taking jabs at you to satisfy their own ego. Truth is, they're simply making a clown of themselves, and as far as I'm concerned 我~

完全

没有

任何

理由

理你

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Sunday, May 17, 2009

The Full Confidence of Faith - FES 50th Anniversary Talk

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FES, or Fellowship of Evangelical Students, is the umbrella organisation of my school Christian fellowship.

I wish I could go for the full session, but looks like I can only go for the Friday one.

Though I should say, I really think the Saturday session would be useful for me.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Time Management

Who talks about time management during long vacations like this?

Me.

First 2 weeks have been eventful and I thoroughly enjoyed myself. Be it outdoor trips, overseas beach retreats, music practices for band and church camp, "Live Long & Prosper", or just plain pigging out.

Got all the time to do the stuff I love. Just that all of them are crammed into May & early June.

Cool.

At first everything was nicely laid out. Now everything's starting to clash with one another. I'm so stretched out now that I can't give more time which I'd otherwise have given to polish the individual projects on hand.

And the apologetics talk for which I have to give a pass.

This is so like the exams. Just that I'm still enjoying myself nonetheless.

I merely wish I can worry less about schedules and logistics.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

One (more) night in PGP

One more night in PGP Residences.

And I'll be checking out tomorrow.

Everything happened too quickly in my stay here. Even more so for the events that transpired which led to my getting a room in the first place.

Tuesday, mid Feb:

E-mail from school: "We've got an empty room right now. Those interested please get back to us by this Friday."

Best part? I wouldn't even have noticed this mail if Outlook hadn't opened by itself in my Science Library PC!

Of course I replied.

Wednesday:

E-mail: "Alright the room's yours! We won't reveal the room type to you until you've checked in so you can't say no even if the room turned out to be that ATAS Type-A with air-con, attached bathroom; the type that takes a heavy blast at your Dad's pocket."

Hmm...

Thursday, 7:30 a.m. Mom's already (!) at work:

"Bye Dad! See you soon!" Thank God I got the most affordable room type!

That day I had to lug both my instruments along 'cause there'll be band practice the following day. Worked out quite a sweat that morning.

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Phew!

Thus began my half-Semester stay at PGP Residences!

Suddenly, Vivocity became the nearest shopping mall, Bus 10 was... still my friendliest bus (now it goes past Vivo + Katong Shopping Mall + Church + both my homes :D ), and the quiet view of Science Park and the harbour beyond bidded me goodnight.

Everyday.

Everything that transpired after that seemed like a breeze too.

Tech Runs. And rushing with Julian and Jon for the last shuttle bus back to PGP.

Publicity Booth, erm, "mending". And that night in my room when I transcribed about 10 songs in total. Hoped whatever was done managed to put the pub side at ease.

More Tech Runs. During one of which I almost went insane. Simply because someone else got lucky (go figure). Ugh, silly me.

Rehearsals at Lunar Bar. And it was only my third time there when I looked up and saw... those pictures o_O.

Emerge.

あの事件。It was in this room, all those nights, when I prayed all the time, but didn't stop to listen. You'd never have expected that fine day to turn out this way. I didn't either.

And it was in this same room, when things got a little brighter. I'm very thankful for whatever followed, given the mess I've made.

Steph's birthday bash. 8 songs in 2 days. And my eyes got larger too.

Campus Reunion Concert. Practices till 3 a.m. and the like. Supper at Fong Seng. All possible 'cause I have a room at PGP.

And the dead goldfish.

I'm not gonna talk about exams here.

Point is, tonight will be my last night here in PGP. This room will forever hold those memories of Year 1 Sem 2.

How timely it is, then, that tomorrow I'll be going for VOICES new Exco election straight after checking out. Right into a new beginning. The week of Emerge 09, which forms the bulk of my ties to this room, is but a distant memory now, but I think I'll pack it into my last batch of luggage too as I leave.

When the clock next strikes 12, the room shall be back to how it was again.

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Crisis Core

McSpicy, it's calling my name now ARGH!!!

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Kai Guan: "what do YOU think of this semester?"

在下: "Picture an apple with its 'core' removed."

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Fuji Apple. What's left is purely Japanese. OK I'm getting too cryptical here...

Ubin

SUMMER.

Not the time to unwind yet, but there's definitely time for some Ubin fun!

We met at Tampines, so I could afford that little extra sleep. And woke up to: Rain.

That meant, plans B all the way to Z. We could always hit the ice-skating rink, and go for Karaoke... but the rain stopped so we could proceed as planned.

I miss the exhilaration of cycling, especially in the cool weather after the rain. And I was sure glad I went in flip-flops... all the mud!

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Tour guide for the day: Huachuan!

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Boys. All under cover

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A piece of the multicoloured wonder

Friday, May 01, 2009

Kimochi

Another of my favourite tracks on my iPod.

Spotted this group WaT (Wentz & Teppei) a few years back on a review on i-Weekly, got curious and went to get their album. Loved everything from style of music to the youthful theme of the lyrics.

“僕のキモチ”, "My Feelings" in English, is one of their most famous songs.

Wonderful LIVE setup. If only Teppei hadn't been crying from the start of the song... LOL.

I shall do justice to this song in my next visit to Cash Studios KTV. The last time I went I had sore throat ARGH!!!

Must Wake Up

Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m. Must Wake Up At 8 a.m.

So I shall go sleep now.

Thursday, April 30, 2009

L`Arc~en~Ciel - Nexus 4

Stumbled upon this song last semester, when I still had the time and the motivation to follow the Oricon Charts.

Love the groove to bits. And the high 'A' note.

One of my favourite destress songs.


V1:
あてなくただよう TRAFFIC JAM
街は無秩序 (むちつじょ) そそぐ雨は ACID RAIN
明日への空席も無く
迷う僕らは夢見る ELECTRIC SHEEP

PC1:
いつ来るか知れない 憧れの時
燻 (くすぶ)る 感情は
ただ黙って待ってられない

C1:
見上げたなら 夜空を切り裂いて
駆け上るJET 僕らを導く
錆 (さ)びついた羽根は まだ朽 (く)ち果てちゃいない
夏より熱い燃え上がる魂
さぁ目覚めろ NEXT STAGE

V2:
無数に増殖 (ぞうしょく)する TRAP
一つミスれば笑い飛ばされ DELETE
未来は仮想的空間へ
結局確かな物は この想いだけさ

PC2:
眺 (なが)めるばかりの 燃えゆく炎
棒に振るチャンスを ただ黙って待ってられない

C2:
見上げたなら 夜空を切り裂いて
駆け上るJET 僕らを導く
信じるまま 走れ きっとまだ間に合う
跳 (は)ね上がる SPEED 決して逃がさない
さぁ飛び乗れ NEXT STAGE

B:
使い捨てられたって 見返してやるさ
0からの自由を取り込んだ最強のMONSTER

C3:
捲き上がった轟音 (ごうおん)にまみれて秒読みのSTART
鼓動に合わせて SAY 321 GO!
君が見上げたなら高く駆け昇る JET 僕らが旅立つ
さあ飛び乗れSPACE AGE
VIRTUAL GENERATION

This rainy morning

Don't I just love the rain.

8 a.m. in the morning, with a gentle pour outside my bunk window, sounding like a lullaby.

I said "heck" to my handphone alarm and slept on. Who wouldn't?

9 a.m..Woke up all refereshed (even after that stupid dream about losing my bag). I guess the morning rain had such a widespread effect, they had to use this fake fire alarm to wake us all up.


Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Got Cloud Like Snake

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《赤壁》中听到孔明说的 “连窥天河,有云如蛇”,就是这个意思吧。

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

4 months of Japaneseness

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It's not over yet.

AnpanMan shall return, in Japanese 4!

なぜ?だって アンパンマン は 一人 しか いない だろう?

この学期に、やっと 大学で 日本語を 勉強する チャンスが あって、うれしかった。まぁ、都合がちょっと よくなかったけど (水曜の 夜 だから、教会の バンドを やめなければならなかった)、会話の 練習する 機会がいっぱいあったし、新しい 友達も できたんだ。

それに、あんなに 不都合な 時間のせいで、晩ご飯が 一つの アンパン しか 食べられないように なってしまった。

だから アンパンマン だ。

この学期の 日本語は こんな 鼓動で 終わって よかった (この前のポストを参考)。うれしいよ、僕。

これを 読んでる 君たちも あきらめないでよ!

P.S. まぁ実は、あんまり 専門 の 物理化学に 戻りたくないなぁ... 次の試験のトピクだったのに...

Motivation

These days I see it everywhere. Even in the least expected places.

Like the comprehension passage of my Japanese Exam. I was brimming with energy after I finished the whole exercise, LOL.

A very simple message - "You will become the person you think you are".

If I had fully embraced my identity in Christ I'd be a very different person today. But so far I've merely been allowing my defeatist mindset which I've been cultivating since secondary school to eat me up from inside.

I know who I want to be. I just have to take active steps to push my childish fears away.

Thank you, God, for using all kinds of stuff to remind me, that if there's going to be a time for change, it is NOW.

The author shares the same dream as mine.

「子どもに「父ちゃん、かっこういい!」と言われたい。」

OK maybe there's a slight difference, but the bottomline is the same - to be a good parent.

Someday I will bring my children up in the ways of the Lord, teach them all the things I should have been taught, and see them growing up as whole persons.

That's my life goal. That's the best way I can make up for what my parents have missed out on - the goodness of a healthy family life.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

help

下个考卷,12小时后进行。

还有半个webcast要听完,接着盖过4份DNA的讲义。

刚刚的晚餐就像这即将结束的学期一样,我满脑子都是课业以外的事情。暑假的种种计划也好,人生目标也好,自我意识也好,又是一个人吃着饭,眉头深锁地思考着。

我对自己的要求越来越严格了。前看后看明明都有神的带领,但就是不满自己仍处在“等待”的阶段。我不喜欢等。

我对别人都有耐心,就是对自己,完全没有。

下学期正式当上“学长”了。对我来说是项更高一层的考验和试炼。

这两周,还是先读书吧。至少我知道,I'm in good hands.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Ah

あっ

My test is 9 a.m. tomorrow.

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Let's see how much I can "unscrew" in one day.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Mug-hattan

Spidey comes to Central Slum Library!


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I don't feel stressed or emo or whatever, but it's not that hard to spot that sulky face in my dear benzene ring.

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Thanks for sulking along with me Benzene. You're now my next best friend since Acetone.