L`Arc~en~Ciel - Nexus 4

Stumbled upon this song last semester, when I still had the time and the motivation to follow the Oricon Charts.

Love the groove to bits. And the high 'A' note.

One of my favourite destress songs.

V1:
あてなくただよう　TRAFFIC JAM
街は無秩序　（むちつじょ）　そそぐ雨は　ACID RAIN
明日への空席も無く
迷う僕らは夢見る　ELECTRIC SHEEP

PC1:
いつ来るか知れない　憧れの時
燻　（くすぶ）る　感情は
ただ黙って待ってられない

C1:
見上げたなら　夜空を切り裂いて
駆け上るJET　僕らを導く
錆　（さ）びついた羽根は　まだ朽　（く）ち果てちゃいない
夏より熱い燃え上がる魂
さぁ目覚めろ　NEXT STAGE

V2:
無数に増殖　（ぞうしょく）する　TRAP
一つミスれば笑い飛ばされ　DELETE
未来は仮想的空間へ
結局確かな物は　この想いだけさ

PC2:
眺　（なが）めるばかりの　燃えゆく炎
棒に振るチャンスを　ただ黙って待ってられない

C2:
見上げたなら　夜空を切り裂いて
駆け上るJET　僕らを導く
信じるまま　走れ　きっとまだ間に合う
跳　（は）ね上がる SPEED　決して逃がさない
さぁ飛び乗れ　NEXT STAGE

B:
使い捨てられたって　見返してやるさ
0からの自由を取り込んだ最強のMONSTER

C3:
捲き上がった轟音　（ごうおん）にまみれて秒読みのＳＴAＲＴ
鼓動に合わせて　SAY　321　GO!
君が見上げたなら高く駆け昇る　JET　僕らが旅立つ
さあ飛び乗れSPACE AGE
VIRTUAL GENERATION

This rainy morning

Don't I just love the rain.

8 a.m. in the morning, with a gentle pour outside my bunk window, sounding like a lullaby.

I said "heck" to my handphone alarm and slept on. Who wouldn't?

9 a.m..Woke up all refereshed (even after that stupid dream about losing my bag). I guess the morning rain had such a widespread effect, they had to use this fake fire alarm to wake us all up.

Got Cloud Like Snake

《赤壁》中听到孔明说的 “连窥天河，有云如蛇”，就是这个意思吧。

4 months of Japaneseness

It's not over yet.

AnpanMan shall return, in Japanese 4!

なぜ？だって　アンパンマン　は　一人　しか　いない　だろう？

この学期に、やっと　大学で　日本語を　勉強する　チャンスが　あって、うれしかった。まぁ、都合がちょっと　よくなかったけど　（水曜の　夜　だから、教会の　バンドを　やめなければならなかった）、会話の　練習する　機会がいっぱいあったし、新しい　友達も　できたんだ。

それに、あんなに　不都合な　時間のせいで、晩ご飯が　一つの　アンパン　しか　食べられないように　なってしまった。

だから　アンパンマン　だ。

この学期の　日本語は　こんな　鼓動で　終わって　よかった　（この前のポストを参考）。うれしいよ、僕。

これを　読んでる　君たちも　あきらめないでよ！

P.S. まぁ実は、あんまり　専門　の　物理化学に　戻りたくないなぁ．．．　次の試験のトピクだったのに．．．

Motivation

These days I see it everywhere. Even in the least expected places.

Like the comprehension passage of my Japanese Exam. I was brimming with energy after I finished the whole exercise, LOL.

A very simple message - "You will become the person you think you are".

If I had fully embraced my identity in Christ I'd be a very different person today. But so far I've merely been allowing my defeatist mindset which I've been cultivating since secondary school to eat me up from inside.

I know who I want to be. I just have to take active steps to push my childish fears away.

Thank you, God, for using all kinds of stuff to remind me, that if there's going to be a time for change, it is NOW.

The author shares the same dream as mine.

「子どもに「父ちゃん、かっこういい！」と言われたい。」

OK maybe there's a slight difference, but the bottomline is the same - to be a good parent.

Someday I will bring my children up in the ways of the Lord, teach them all the things I should have been taught, and see them growing up as whole persons.

That's my life goal. That's the best way I can make up for what my parents have missed out on - the goodness of a healthy family life.

help

下个考卷，12小时后进行。

还有半个webcast要听完，接着盖过4份DNA的讲义。

刚刚的晚餐就像这即将结束的学期一样，我满脑子都是课业以外的事情。暑假的种种计划也好，人生目标也好，自我意识也好，又是一个人吃着饭，眉头深锁地思考着。

我对自己的要求越来越严格了。前看后看明明都有神的带领，但就是不满自己仍处在“等待”的阶段。我不喜欢等。

我对别人都有耐心，就是对自己，完全没有。

下学期正式当上“学长”了。对我来说是项更高一层的考验和试炼。

这两周，还是先读书吧。至少我知道，I'm in good hands.

Ah

あっ

My test is 9 a.m. tomorrow.

Let's see how much I can "unscrew" in one day.

Mug-hattan

Spidey comes to Central Slum Library!

~

I don't feel stressed or emo or whatever, but it's not that hard to spot that sulky face in my dear benzene ring.

Thanks for sulking along with me Benzene. You're now my next best friend since Acetone.

Comfort?

Last 3 pages of Chapter 22 on my Organic Chem, and now I'm stuck in the comfort zone of textbook-reading.

Go out there and do some practice, man! 有什么好舍不得的？

Work Work!

赶快工作也将临 夜临工便成

Amen.

Match

Damn Chapter 13! Damn Equilibrium!

Tml I shall squeeze-dry Huachuan's Organic Chem expertise LOL.

I've always been looking for a suitable alternative to my black Timex watch (to match my T-shirt + loose-fit cargo berms) and my sliver Adidas analogue watch (to match my shirts). Up till now I've been settling for wearing my silver watch when I'm wearing T-shirt + Jeans, but there's gotta be a better option. One fine evening, looking around on the MRT, I found my answer.

Got it this afternoon :D

Love Story

「これは僕の　恋愛に関する物語だ。」

This coming week will be a test of how much I love myself.

もう一度言う。「これは僕の　恋愛に関する物語だ。」

And how much I love Chemistry.

Chotto Matte Kudasai

Don't all go off at the same time, man!

2 projects from my J-Studies and J-Language module just got wrapped up today. Sui sui. Now as far as these 2 modules are concerned I'm down to the final exams.

I'm too lazy for words. But I should still say, most of my coursemates and I fell in love with Japan even more after the whole course, in ways that differ from person to person. I, for one, had a very different view of the Samurai before this course, and I came out with a very different impression of them. I've now seen the more human, everyday side of the Samurai, I guess.

And many other things, of course. Like the precarious balance that is the national identity of Japan. I totally had no idea.

And to my project group mates, nice working with you guys. I'm glad we embarked on this topic, somehow. It's got its academic value I daresay. Compared to sushi and samurai, that is :D

My favourite part of the research would go to the part on Meiji Restoration. Their obsession with achieving excellence was... mind blowing. And inspiring.

And I still don't buy the victim mindset of WW2 Japan. They can call me brainwashed by the victors' justice of the Allies, but I won't exactly say I believe the Allies; I only believe the tens of thousands of Chinese killed in WW2. I'm Chinese after all. and there're just some things we can never joke about, I think.

It was with mixed feelings that I slotted the term paper into Shumin's mailbox.

~

We've finally wrapped things up for LAJ presentation. Our improv was classic!

「ストレスに　なると (!)　」

and I'll check out more of 推背图 this summer.

~

And now my core modules, don't all come charging at me at once!

ooooookkkkkkaaaaayyyyy llooooorrrr

It's a refreshing experience, and it's amazing how things change when I start making an effort in pushing my limiting beliefs away.

After all, ultimately, those limiting beliefs just reflect one thing - my obsession with gaining the approval of man, something God said I shouldn't care about.

So I finally came to terms with the fact that I've been the one consciously conjuring up those ideas about myself, and this means I can really stop myself from thinking stuff like "I'm just an extra in the group" if I want to.

And I began to see how, bit by bit, my social interactions took on a positive change.

Today, while praying, I decided to just let it off a bit in my private (OK, not so private now) time with God, since I still needed an avenue for release. I was just about to start with "Actually huh, I felt rather ignored yesterd-"

"What is that to you? You follow Me."

-- John 21:22

Stunned.

It just came up my mind and I got hit by the truth of it. Out of context yes, but definitely not out of character for Him to give me such a word for a time like this.

OK lor.

Summer

Hole-y

I wanted to blog about how blessed I felt during Holy Week. I still will, but looks like I'm not going to be able to do it today.

This morning I was thinking I'd be able to clear 3 chapters of Organic Chemistry after dinner.

But I'm still doing my J-studies paper now. Should have been done before dinner time.

Slowness. And tiredness. Stared at laptop all day. DAMN good for the eyes. Already pondering the possibility of sleeping at 10 p.m. and waking up at 5 a.m. tomorrow to finally do some Chemistry and get stuff settled for the final Fellowship Cell Group for the Semester.

Am I still the Proud Science Student?

God use me. However unworthy I am.

Dark Nintendo Night

OK I have to say, this is awesome.

The fusion of 2 songs, with different chord progressions, that somehow fit together. Mario undergoes a key change to B Major to fit the B Minor of Dark Eternal Night. OK scratch "somehow". The fit is almost perfect!

Spark

It came this afternoon, in full force, when the dibenzylacetone-alcohol solution was boiling a tad too rigourously and some of it spilled over onto the heating pan. Somewhere close by the pan a spark burst forth with a loud 'pop' sound, so loud I wondered why no one turned to look.

I turned off my heating pan, thinking that it had short-circuited (and later found out that it hadn't, thank God).

And ended up stoning there for a minute or two.

I guess things have been building up for the past week. My lab report which I've just completed a moment ago, slightly overdue. My conversation with Xuande about rethinking my Major and job prospects... OK maybe just my Major. And I kind of amused myself when Jewel was asking how I've been juggling studies and CCA and my reply was a simple

"No, actually I haven't been juggling."

Yea, I haven't. I've compromised on my studies by quite a lot. I can rethink my fling with Chemistry at a later date, but as of this Semester I've got 2 Chem modules and 1 Life Science module and I'm still intent on getting my 4.5. Even after that disastrous Organic Chem quiz.

And that means going through my 2 textbooks faithfully, bit by painful bit.

~

Moving on is always easy. It requires a lot more effort and mental energy, however, to make sure I take the lessons learnt along with me as I move on.

Which is kind of strange, 'cause I also believe that the longest-lasting changes will always take place at sub-conscious level.

It will take another semester, I guess, to see how much more comfortable I've become with myself. And with people.

~

If I get to see Bass Clef, Miller and Santos the next Sem, I'll be a happy man :)

Chemistry

What happens when a chemist buys a new water bottle?

Cool. Such a turn-on. Go google hexagonal water. I can only wonder how much the turnover is for the catalytic inner coating. That's something which cannot be easily found out by titration...

Talk

A prayerful man is a happy man XD