I've outgrown begging. And I'm now facing the frustration of seeing people get what they want through begging. Kind of makes me sick, actually.
I get this feeling that my thoughts are taking a darker turn. At least I no longer avoid seeing the flip side of things that appear good on the outside, just for the sake of being a nicer person.
I foresee it breaking apart. And then I'll dive between the cracks to get what I want. And I don't see anything wrong.
